now that's odd

Do you ever find yourself doing things that seem so uncharacteristic of yourself? In those moments of boredom, when your brain starts to shut off, and your body just tends towards whatever bad habit that it wants to pursue? Tell me, do you ever have those moments where you catch yourself doing something so odd you hope others never see this side of you?

Well, despite embarrassment, I will delve into my personal experience.

In my defense, it has been a busy week (its only Tuesday, but I feel like I have been living in a whirlwind). This evening my brain decided to shut off partially -it was strong enough to encourage me to do what it wanted, but not working well enough for me to be completely aware of what I was doing.

So you might be asking what I was doing. Hmm, well about the time my roommate walked in the room I was sitting on my bed staring off into space. Not exactly strange, except for the part where I had a huge swiss army knife plunged into a tub of peanut-butter that was sitting on my lap. "Listening" to my music which was on mute, blankly staring at a FB screen that was failing to load due to slow internet connection, I must have looked ridiculous. And then I saw the fruit snack wrappers strewn across the floor (all 4 of them), the candy bar wrapper, and the remnants of mango peels and pits that were neatly nestled in the corner of the room. When did I eat all that and why?!?! The majority of my secret snack stash was gone in one night! It was like my brain decided it wasn't getting enough glucose, so it did something about it.

Well, after cleaning up the remnants of my eating spree and removing peanutbutter chunks from the intricate crevices of the knife, I have realized that however organized I am, at some point, chaos will surface. No matter how much I conserve and ration, there will be a breaking point. I hit that breaking point this evening. The damage is almost too much to bear. Almost half of my bees knees American honey peanut butter is gone!!!! I know, devastating.

Despite the tragedy, a lesson should be learned. Don't restrict yourself on the things your brain craves, or if you do, make sure that those precious possessions are locked away where it takes significant brain power for extraction.